This is LONG, but please HELP or ADVICE me.. ?

I kind of hope your joking. If not, why the hell are you with him. If he ever got mad enough to hit you, then **** him. You don't stay with people like that. If you managed to break up with him ok, then break up with him, and never get back with him. You just need to get over him and find someone else. God will help you, but you have to help yourself. If you just keep feeling sorry for yourself or desperate than nobody can help you. Just forget him and find someone else.